15/1/07

// feeling ::
// prayer for ::

I just got back from the Arbinger Institute a couple of hours ago. My dad knows the boss and had arranged an interview for me. Well so I went there and learnt that I'll get paid $5/hr and I'll be doing admin stuff all that.

I'm really confused as to which door God wants me to go thru since He opened so many for me.

I had blogged an entry after I got home, but I realised I was practically just whining and complaining. I got embarrassed and ashamed of it so I decided not to post it. haha..bad impression on me xP

Well I realised that complaining and whining even tho God opened so many doors for me was kind of an idiotic thing to do. Something only ingrates would do, which I dont want to become. But ah..Prayer and petition...is the only way to help me in times of trouble and confusion.

Everytime I put on my work shirt and look at myself in the mirror, I'd sigh and look away. I didnt like what I saw. I mean, is working in that profession my only way to complete my building fund pledge, when I dread wearing what I should? I look like I'm twenty plus when I'm only 18 when I wear those shirts. *ugh*

Well I cant wait for cgm. I've been longing for it.